I’ve come to a place where there are certain things I just can’t pray for. Maybe it’s just a lack of faith on my part. Or maybe it’s that I’m no longer naïve to the nature of God or His will.
I write today because there are times when I find it so difficult to pray. Sometimes I feel in my personal life and as I observe in others prayer is nothing more than some superstitious recited cantation. Far be it from me to be the judge of anyone’s heart or intentions, but by the things we pray for sometimes it’s hard not to draw conclusions.
I think my own difficultly in prayer has risen out of some very common questions.
- “Why does God seem to answer prayers for parking spots when entire countries are destroys in earth quakes and famines?”
- “Why is one healed and another left sick?”
- “Why are some Christians poor and others are rich, if both work just as hard and love God just as much?”
So maybe I’m just lack faith, but there are things that I can’t pray for anymore.
I can’t pray for finical gain above what my family needs to survive. I understand living in America already places in me top percentages of the world’s rich. Instead I find myself praying for faithfulness and wisdom for the things that God has given me.
I can’t pray for parking spots when owning a car means I’m living in a reality that 90% of others in this world are not. That’s like saying God indoor-pluming is not good enough, I want my toilet to be gold plated.